i always envy people who knows how to love. the guts to enter a relationship without any guide book on hand to aide when things wont work out. Yet as human nature, we try to seek our place in this world, to try and find someone who will travel with us on our journey called life. i’ts more like trial and error, really. we look for it, crave for it, sometimes we call it the essence of our being often time we simply call it…love. Funny, a lot of people find it in unexpected place, on unexpected time or to unexpected person. And when one is lucky enough, a happy ending will surely happen next. But in reality, its the irony of what’s gonna happen. You see, love is like an opportunity, a window that opens once in a while. But, like opportunity, it doesn’t stay. Some people doesn’t know how to spot it and often times they blindly let it pass. i have known a lot of persons who love to the extent that they put love to its next level. and i cant help but ask myself if i can do that. see, i know me. and i know i cant love 100% on somebody. i cant just cant! the only reason i love someone is because of the benefits that come with it. and when i do love someone all i can give is but 60% of it. the reason i am afraid to give it all is more centered on the fear that if i give my 100% on love, what happens when things wont work out? I don’t have any grounded assurance that things will work out and when i act as an optimist and hope for the best what will make of me then when i get the worst. i know someone who loves someone but is not quite sure if the love that he gives to that someone is rightfully returned. My question is this, how can you love a person and ask yourself if you are love back? For me, loving is like giving, you don’t expect something in return. If you love a person and he loves you too, he knows damn well to love you back or else he just doesn’t love you. When there is a imbalance on the amount of love that you give and the amount receive, ask yourself this, am i happy and contented with the amount of love i get for him? is its all worth the sacrifice i’ve been through? or does my future with him looks bright? your answer to these questions is the key that shall unlock your dilemma, i know you will find it difficult to answer these questions since you are battling with your feelings. but you should know that when you always bail yourself when ask with those questions you will just forever ignore the fact that there is a problem, and and no matter what you do i will eventually surface.